I’m two.

I too have feelings

Like tangled strings

Emotions vibrating but making no sound

Are my feet still on the solid ground?

Or am I lost in this world I once recognised like the palm of my hand

But now this hand is not mine

I don’t know whose it is

I don’t recognise that smile

It has no reason to exist

Trapped in a cave

A dark room where my nightmares hide

I’m looking to find them, stepping inside

They’re bullets, they’re bombs

The simple touch of their malevolent composition

And my thoughts enter a collision

I will bring down myself

Clear the thoughts in that cave,

Those nightmares who make me crave

Those copious desires that split me up

I’m different; I don’t even know who I am

I take decisions based on the moment

I take conclusions based on the past

I have no dreams to be fulfilled

Only nightmares that’ll get me killed.

I’m two.

I’m always two.

There are always two, they’re always two.

The world is two.

Right and wrong are needles penetrating equally in every pair

Every option makes me despair, enter a new dimension

Conquered by tension, pretension and hesitation

Though I’m not lost, I’m guided by uncertainty

A veil over my senses, I feel no relief while I’m awake

And when I sleep I have no dreams, I only liberate my nightmares

They congregate around my nerves, my heart pulsing by night

My lungs don’t inhale, I’m suffocating again

Stop being two, stop making me choose

Stop making this life a double-sided exploiting journey

Take my mind into peace

Let it be calm, let my lungs inhale and my heartbeat cease

Make my fears run, let my eyes reflect the sun

Let me be one.

My head whispers to me

This is not how it’s meant to be

But what is?

You’ve always taught me not to ask for more

You’ve always said I deserved this

And now I’m cold, I can’t feel anything

I smash the mirror with my fist

Like it had done something.

You are the blood in my veins

You’ve given me what you claimed as uniquely yours

You gave me lungs to breathe

But forgot to give me the will to live.

You are my skin, you are my eyes

But it is I who see through them

And you who dictate the lies.

You’re who I most despise

Still I breathe to keep you breathing

I try so hard but I always end up deceiving.

My head aches with your words

Each one inflicting me harshly

I scream and plead for you to stop

But you don’t see how bad it hurts

You are the blood in my veins

I am the tears running down your face

I’m that look of disgust, that smile filled with regret

I’m that ball of confusion,

The mess that procreates, degrades and degenerates your life

You’re the cage that surrounds me

Feeds me with pain and ignorance

Makes all I love lose its importance

Just to keep it all to yourself.

She is the blood in my arteries

She’s the one who’s keeping me alive

I haven’t got her smile, my eyes aren’t her blue

But at least she loves me more than you do.

She is too, the blood in my veins

She is every smile that rips through my face

I’m her little angel, a precious innocent being

I’m that ever-shining diamond,

The strong willed, hard working, dream fighting creation

She’s my wings, bruised and torn down

That rise me above the clouds and sky

Makes all I love live and never die

Just for me to hold on another day.

You were never there, she would’ve if she could

You’re my bad, she’s my good

She holds on to me preciously, you throw me to the side

I’m better than you think, so put away your pride

If you can’t recognise your own strength

There’s no point having it,

I’m your blood, I’m your feelings

Help me break the mirror before I crumble with you.

My diary has spoken

And my secrets are dead

Cos now they're in your head

And I've got nothing to hide.

Just before you say it's time

I'll let go of your hand and blame it on your body

You see I can't love somebody

With this hole in my chest.

Everything's falling apart now

Your world is breaking down

And everyone know's it hurts when

Your feet come to the ground

But I won't stop you falling

I will ripp you off your cloud

If love is based on dreaming

You can let go of me now.

My memmories are broken

And you know too much

Cos when I said don't touch

You stepped right inside.

Just before you say it's time

I'll let go of your hand, and blame it on your body

You see I can't love somebody

With this hole in my chest.

Everything's falling apart now

Your world is breaking down

And everyone know's it hurts when

Your feet come to the ground

But I won't stop you falling

I will ripp you off your cloud

If love is based on dreaming

You can let go of me now.

My secrets should be mine

You shouldn't waste my time

You should want to be here

And not only once in a while...

It's always been this way

It's never ever gonna change

You say you'll love me all the way

I say I think you're strange

I've never understood

And hopefully I never will

You say you'll love me all the way

And I take it down like a pill

Until it's too late.

Maybe it never will come

The day where the sun shines high

All the moments that will never die

And now the memories fade away.

It's broken

It's too surreal

It's poison

Something I can't feel.

I thought I heard you say

I'll never ever let you go

Bur now you've left me all alone

What happened I don't know

I could find the strength

But now I can't find the words

I never know how it is

I only know when it hurts.

When it's too late.

I'm chosing my life

And I've gone the wrong way

My breaks are broken

And this is where I'll stay

Stuffed in my seat, with a one way ticket

And the devil's blood tainted on my shirt

I should go and undress

But my scars wouldn't leave you impressed

So I'll stay where I am

With these voices whispering to me,

Confusing my greed

I want to change, I want to succeed

I should stop what I'm doing

I should cut on the hurting

Cut with the talking,

Stop blabbing about nothing

Maybe then I'll grow up and become something

Decide what I want, I believe I can have it

I believe I deserve it, I believe it is possible

Because gratitude kills the solitude, the lust and the pain

Gives me the strenght I need to not go back to where I came

This sickness isn't me, I'm screaming through selfishness

Screaming to your face

Give me the cure, I need to be set free

Before I go insane and start a killing spree

My vices are fake, my needs keep me awake,

Take me and heal me before I brake!

It's waiting for me

It's keeping me company

It's all that I want

But not all that I need

I must stop this vice

I just hope to succeed

My strength is hidden somewhere

I want it to rush out

But my mouth only inspires

When I'm supposed to shout

It's the smoke that covers my eyes

I can't see what's wrong

Hiding me from what I hate

This makes me feel so strong

Yet I know this must stop

I'm just hiding behind an illusion

How could I ever have thought this to be right?

I can see an upcoming hurricane of confusion

I'm hunting down my own soul

I'm telling my lungs to stop

I'm running around in circles

I've been giving up on myself, since the beginning

Stop following me, stop cursing my lips

Stop burning my fingertips

I'm wasting time on this nonsense

This invincible shield, this imaginary world

How could I ever have believed in something so absurd?

Floating down fro my heaven

A bunch of lies that I trust

The surface burns my feet

As I come to the world, a hell that lives in lust

(UNFINISHED***)

I've walked away far too many times without you begging me to stay

So I've continued going through the same old road

Hopes and dreams are gone, there's nothing to keep them growing strong

Am I still holding on to that empty feeling?

Crystal eyes caress the view

I'm wondering if dreams come true

Could this all be a lie, I'm broken inside

There's nothing left in this world but to hide

Hide in the dark, cos the sun burns my smile

I haven't been smiling for a while

Time isn't what we need, stop chosing paths you will not lead

Colours have no meaning, as yellow becomes blue

I'm still here waiting, wondering if dreams come true

Cos I'm sure they never will

As these words I spill

I feel myself drifting away

As they live to kill

My life has been tinted in gray

We're lost in a place we've heard of before

But we don't remember how it works anymore

Crystal eyes caress the view

I'm giving up on all I thought to be true

This is just a lie, I'm broken inside

My memmory waves have changed to a new tide

Hide all alone, cos my friends have disappeared

Losing my friends was once what I most feared

But now I'm a dried up scumm, with no emotions or regret

I feel nothing as the rain, it blinds my eyes

I don't need to see this, and you don't deserve to die

I'm leaving now, it's too late to save you

I'm leaving now, no, I'm leaving you.

Home, somewhere quiet where you and I can be alone

I feel my heart is lost, it's turning into stone

Where've you gone, where am I going

I find memmories of you wherever I'm looking

But you're gone.

Standing, waiting, recalling your smile

We've always been the same, you and I

Shouting, crying, screaming your name

I'm holding on to the memmories that still remain.

You're gone and I'm still smiling

Cos I know if stars could talk they wouldn't be shining

I'm strong, and my heart's still burning

No matter what, this world keeps turning

Wouldn't you think about it?

My lungs are full and I still wonder where you are

How did you get that far?

Circles in my mind, sick of wasting time

I want to break through these clouds that remind me of you

Turn away, look away I'm faling through my pain

Life isn't always as it seems

A broken fairytale, the biggest mess

Where the prince doesn't get his princess

You're lost and I'm still searching

Cos I know if hope could guide me this nightmare'd have and ending

I'm strong, and my eyes are still dry

No matter what, I will always try.

Could I beg on my knees

Or should I stop and just say please

There's dirt on my hands, I'm messed up

I'm not waiting, the clock has struck

I'll blame it on you, and walk away

With a smile on my face, looking forward for a new day

She can't fill in the hole you've left

Though his eyes lure me across the room

It's still far too soon

To act like you're not at the back of my mind, with your glowing smile

She can't act like a winner

Looking fresh, damn she is a spinner

But I'd never dare to lock you up in my past.

She wouldn't let me go

Even through dark nights, streets with no lights

I find you in the shallow end

Staring through her, passing her, finding me, knowing I'm not hers.

Crying out to soulless walls

Screaming your name till my heart falls

My emotions captivated,

You're keeping me incentivated when all you should be doing is smiling

Please stay, just don't say a word

I'm still figuring out where I left you last time we met

She's begging me to stay, to stop looking your way

I've lost control too many times to watch her watch me drown in my confusion

Unleash the pressure, forget the smoothness of your skin

I want to be yours, stop holding me back

It's just days and days running past, and I fall only to find

It's just you that I lack.

These days are running past us

We’re loosing track of time

Giving up hope or lose our minds

Too many choices left behind

Eyes shut firmly, my breathing has turned calm

Mouth open, I’m feeling unsustainable

As days are running by

I’m losing track of time

Sorry but there’s more to spending hours alone with you

You’re a complete waste of time

Trying to break my life

But I won’t let these days keep running by

Unforgettable, try to unleash this pain

As memories fill me up, I’m just starin’ at the rain

I’m hopeless without you,

But with you I’m a mess

I’ve gotta stop treating you like some sort of goddess

You’re a complete waste of time

Trying to break my heart

But I won’t let these days keep running by

Your smell poisons the air I breathe

Your smile haunts my thoughts

Trying to destruct all of me,

But you will not succeed

As days are running by

I’m losing track of time

I’m sorry but there’s more than you in my life

I’m leaving you right now,

Forgetting our past

I won’t let these days run this fast.

I'm just a absent-minded boy

Walking alone, down these rainy streets

Where's joy? What joy?

(I left it somewhere back in Dublin

When you just couldn't help starin'

I found myself close to that place we call heaven)

I see you kiss that bastard who still doesn't feel compassion

Sit down chewing gum

I'm wondering if he tastes like mint...

(Why won't you try me?

Give me a fucking hint)

Since these roads are tangled up and intertwined in the backseat of my mind.

He gets you flowers, guess he's got superpowers

And I'm just a guy, standing naked with open empty arms

I wouldn't let you go

I should have told you so

Which way has hope gone?

(Pass that river, forget your presence)

I wouldn't forget you

(Pass that finger, forget your sadness)

I would be there to console you

Consuming time, as the days feel like nights

I'm challenging my heart to forget you

I've never felt so messed up

Like the day I saw him and threw up

I've never wanted you so much

Now I've swallowed all my bubble gum.

Let him go, let his heart drop to the floor

(If he's got one)

Let him go, pick my heart up from the floor

(If I've still got one)

You can’t see it, you can’t feel it

But I feel it and it’s bursting right under my skin

I’ve got to go cos you told me so

Without a choice I fall through the snow

You want to shake me, but you can’t brake me

There’s something braking but it’s just the ice under our feet

(Cold blue frozen lips

Heated by a passionate kiss

Smoke coming from your lungs,

This is the beginning of something new)

Brake free, break out of me

You can’t miss me, you know you can see

I’m right behind you watching your every move

Your eyes bright, your body so smooth

Create an atmosphere, get me out of here

Create an atmosphere, get me out of here

I’m willing to break the chains; my eyes are melting on my cheeks

Save me, get me out of here

This feeling will not disappear

A mix of hate, angst and fear

Can’t you get me out of here?

(I miss the taste of cherry pie

The soft twinkle in your eye

Let’s get you out of here

No one will notice you disappeared)

Let me go, let me go, let me go my way

I knew this would happen some day

But someday then had felt so far away

(What are you saying?

This is a mess

We’ll be gone before you know

You’ll miss this cold white snow

Live it up, live it in

Give it all you’ve got inside

Get your feet back on the ground

And let your brain chemicals decide)

What’s right, what’s wrong

Create an atmosphere so strong

What’s in, what’s out,

What are you talking about?

(Something is missing, something is wrong

Something is missing, something is wrong)

Get me out of here, I’m leaving this now

(If something’s wrong, let’s just end this song now!)

I’m standing at the end of the world

Looking around me, thinking about what I’ve heard

This isn’t the place I once knew

Where rivers flowed and flowers grew

This soil is polluted, just like my lungs

We mustn’t protest, they’ll cut off our tongues

I’m breathing hate, trying to exhale love

Starting to wonder, where’s the god above?
Isn’t he here to shelter us?
Isn’t he here to protect us?

What are we doing, isn’t this world good enough for us?

Our selfishness is bigger, than the will to not pull the trigger

Why can’t we stop, why can’t I hold those guns down?

I’m trying to forgive, but the king has lost it’s crown,

Mankind is ruling a world of hate

Where drug dealers stand high, and killers procreate

Our brains have lost wisdom , colors gone crimson

Red is all around me, but I will still stand my ground

I’ll remember every sound

Every bomb that bursts in a poor child’s face

Every shot gun that delivers someone’s soul to disgrace

Soldiers running, not running away

Running towards cities, to ruin a new day

I’m just behind the tv screen, listening to the children as they scream

I can’t help them, you know what I mean

But one day I’ll get up from my living room, get out in the world

And tell the politicians, about what I’ve heard

I’ll make them feel that pain, I’ll make them feel emotionally raped

I’ll cover their mouths with my words, like all the innocents who got their mouths taped

I’m standing up against humanity, life mustn’t end

I’m not living in a fantasy world, I cannot pretend

They’re dancing in bullets and blood,

Swimming in dollars, there’s nearly a flood

All the cash, surrounding the wealthy

While beggars ask for change, trying to become healthy

I won’t sit here and watch

Something must be done

And if I change something now, I might just save someone

I’ll put a smile on that girl’s face

I’ll give her baby brother some space

The world isn’t going to collapse in front of my eyes

They aren’t going to explode with this planet, as long as we’re here

If we could only make them stop, the suffering would disappear

Blood won’t fertilize the crops of the famine

Hate won’t cross your eyes, let you see the world in black

There will be no such word as attack

No more expressions of war, no more fights

We’ll spread the peace, let everyone to their own rights

This is our world, our hearts are what count

Money and power, is not what this life is about.

Footsteps are running over me

As my thoughts roll on floor

Crashing the lock, you open the door

People are grabbing you, begging you to stay

Look throught the door, with fuzzy eyes and say

Stop making me feel like a piece of shit!

You hold your heart firmly, but forget your brain

(Insane, these people are all fucking insane)

Pull the handle

The door is already open

Laughter and mock, you’re afraid to go in

Fuck, I can’t handle this anymore

These pills, spilt on the ground

(Rolling around, I can’t hear a sound

Everything is silent, I’m feeling alone)

I lay here now, sore,

I promised I’d stop, I swore.

I’m greedy and you can’t stop me

I’m needy and you can’t please me

They push you, you fall to the ground

With blood on your knees, you get up and trip

Here’s your whisky, take only a sip

You don’t listen to what I say, you go the wrong way

(Now you’re in the same room as me, what luck

Get up and realise it, scream “what the fuck?!”)

With a knot behind your back, your hands disappear

On the floor, a puddle of yellow, this is fear

They’re calling you a mentally retarded disobedient drinker

I spit to the wall, you mumble and fall

My eyes get darker, your lips get pinker

I’ll get us out of here, I’ll save you, I promise

“Shut the fuck up, I don’t give a shit!”

You’re looking for your whisky jar

But we’re trapped in these people, they’re preparing for war

(Stop making me feel like a piece of shit!

You’re running after your whisky, I’m done with those pills

You’re holding your glass, waiting till it fills

You’ll never get that high, I’m leaving this place,

You’ll stay here and die, no need for a race)

Those bottles, they served you right, keeping you company every night

(Still, you smashed them in pieces, say it out loud

Now you’re fucked up in here, I hope you’re proud)

My immense ocean of tears is bathing the sand of regrets

The more pain you inflict, the stronger the tide gets

Speak carefully; my wind of fury mustn’t concentrate

Into a hurricane of air from both passion and hate.

Leave me alone, leave me command my own throne

I’m the queen of this nightmare, the goddess of this hell

Look too deep into my eyes and you’ll get caught in my spell

Tribuo in vestri animus, quod EGO vadum solvo vos

(Give in your soul, and I shall free you)

EGO crur operor vos haud vulnero , EGO vadum servo vestri animus

(I shan't do you no harm, I shall protect your soul)

Inficio is niger quod occulto is umbra.

(Taint it in black and cover it in shadows)

 vestri somes exuro lux lucis forem

(May your body burn in the light forever)

planto vestri judicium iam vel ego vadum sumo vobis

(Make your choice now or i shall choose for you)

Your choice has been made within the devil’s wish

Accept it at once or choose to perish

The fire that burns in each ray of moonlight

Has chosen to shine far more than before, tonight

His wish is my command, soon you shall be laying here in the sand

I shall regret this soon enough, and you shall then turn into dust,

I’ve a message for you, restless soul who owns my heart

Ut vos have lost vestri animus EGO mos servo is validus per estus ex meus infractus pectus pectoris.

(When you will have lost your soul, I’ll keep you warm with the heat from my broken heart)

A message to god is carved in my skin

To remind me where I belong, every time I sin

My hatred is passing onto my beloved

But I have no remorse.

I am the one that despises the holy son

That man who pleads for revenge but surrenders in vain

That lets the cross hold his corpse while the blood melts into pain

How I scorn his cowardly courage, his fearful will

He cries out for his father who just watches him give in

Watches his anger and trust spill

As he starts to become numb, his eyes start to shut

His soul runs away from the human’s world, leaving it corrupt

My sons, my brothers, this isn’t the leader we chose

The one who runs when we’re afraid

The one who didn’t do what should’ve been made

The one who gives everything up with a gentle pose.

A message to the people is carved in everyone’s heart

To remind us all why this world is breaking apart

Our hatred is passing onto our beloved

And they shall have no remorse.

This piece of paper is something

That can’t express itself, on its own

So I’ll grab my pen and fill it in

With all my thoughts when I’m alone

Right now things aren’t flowing

Like they used to

So I’ll forget what this is about

And leave the trouble to you

Be damned by these words that won’t let me say

All these feelings I feel and still felt today

My expressions or comments won’t change the world

So I’ll turn back the page

And start again.

The lines of this song should be simple

But my emotions are just as mixed up as they are

Maybe I should let go of my pen

I’ve been wasting my ink on this paper

By always ending with an “I’ll finish this later”.

The walls in my room are as blank as this page

But my room keeps my heart, like a cage

I don’t want to break free or fight back

So I’ll stay here and think:

“What is it that I lack?”

Be damned by these words that won’t let me go

All these feelings that trap me, in this hole

My wishes and dramas won’t change the world

So I’ll turn another page

And start again.

Stop, holding me down like this

It isn’t fair; you know this won’t get you anywhere

Stop, pushing me down like this.

Well at least, tell me if you care.

At least, tell me if this will take me somewhere.

Cos this world is full of holes, like the blanks in my paper

And my heart is as empty as my pen

The words spin around in my head, just like me in my bed

When night falls, I promise you, I’ll write you a song

But my intentions or passions won’t change the world

So I’ll just turn another page

And give up.

I can't stand seeing others

Have the same as me

And as by me they pass

My blood rushes into an ocean of envy.

I want to release it on someone

This rage that I've created

I can't keep it inside

I can't hide how long I've hated.

This hate defines a line, a path

And at the end of it, I find wrath.

I don't want to get there yet

It's too long to walk

So I'll just stay here, where I am

And enjoy your lips, as you talk.

I could get up and kiss you

I could lie and say I've missed you

But instead I'll spread the caramel

Over your lustrous body

And taste your cherry sweet lips

I could have my hand around your waste

And move along with your hips.

My movements are smooth, I'm too good to be true

There's a distinct layer between me and you.

I'll leave you tonight, no deal for a fight

I want money, forget the honey I wanted to spread

I want to be rich, without cash I'd rather be dead.

So kill me now, devil, I am your son

I have your blood under my skin

I am the ensemble of every deadly sin

I am the one.

I'm full of these days, I'm sick of these flashing lights

They're blinding my eyes, rays piercing through my mind

I'm going to start a fight, me against mankind.

I'm in a mist of confusion, cloudy thoughts invade my dreams

Where sadly I find, nothing is what it truly seems.

If you weren't born to love, then what are you meant to do?

Accepting lies, paying dues,

Through bloodshut eyes, we look for clues

We'll never find any more than this.

Grab my hand.

Now let go.

This is the moment you've been waiting for.

Your touch burns me, stay away for now

I can't stand the noise, my head is blowing

My words have lost meaning, my blood isn't flowing

I'm losing time, it's running ahead of me

Trying to reach out and grab it, stretch my hands to the sky

But the closer I get to heaven, the sooner I will die.

I'll lay my head down

And ignore their unconscious excuses

I'll start a new life cos the one I'm living now feels useless

Can't stand these negative complexes that have been deteriorating my promises

I'll stand firmly and forget why I'm hurting

I haven't given up, these scars don't reflect my cowardness

They beam with courage and shine with pain, so don't call me gutless

Cos when they'll come for me, ready to uncover me

My guts will be all that remain.

Watch her fading through the darkness

Face pale, hair wild

Watch her begging for forgiveness

Looks decieving, heart mild

If only she could take a step back,

Crack the ice from her heart.

See how she's stumbling down

The staircase

She's lost her crown, she's no one now

She's lost herself, yet to be found

If only she could take a step back

And melt her frozen heart

Her eyes pierced by the ray of light

Flooding from the door

She wants to get up; she wants to be part of the fight

But she can't take anymore.

Now she falls, now she's crumbling,

She reaches out for help

She screams but no one hears her yelp

Now she's dead, it's the beasts' time to be fed.

She was life, she was good

But she had to change herself

Change her living, change her heart-beating

Now the creatures infest

She's nothing but a corpse, covered in cloth

Ripped up in pieces, filled with shame

Soon she'll be gone, but her memmories will remain.

If only she would've taken a step back

But now they feed on her cold heart.

 Smile, crinkle your nose, hold your pose

Give that look that no one else knows

When it's raining, and shadows emerge

Wind howling, leaves crawling

It's all giving me the urge to say what I need

But I won't, but I won't.

Walk away, don't look back

I will stay if yo want me back

You were everything that I wanted

Everything that I needed

But I'm still holding myself back.

Suny afternoon, watching TV, you're next to me

Give me that hug I get for free

When it's sunny and shadows create

Wind sleeping, leaves weaping

It's all I hate, I'll hear what I want

But you won't, but you won't.

And when nothing gives us a break

Promise me you'll leave me alone

No one's home, this heart is dead

This time you're out of my head!

Walk away, don't look back

I will stay if you want me back

You were everything that I wanted

Everything that I needed

But I'm still holding myself back.

We'll turn this all around, turn back time and change the way everyone else guesses our names

We'll grab each other hard, promise to never let go and let everyone else know what we've been hiding for

oh, much too long.

It isn't too late, don't be ashamed

We've come this far, recklessly pushing ourselves through the dark.

Let go everything you hate, come whisper to my ear

I'll fight back anything you fear, I'll fight so hard

No matter how deep the scars.

I'll make it all disappear, I'll try so hard

We'll make it through.

No one, could pretend that we could shout at the top of our lungs

Let's show them how we can scream till we bleed,

We will succeed, don't be ashamed

We've come this far, recklessly pushing ourselves through the dark.

She couldn't believe what was happening

Everything she loved was collapsing

Crouch down, breathe deeply

Don't forget, never forget.

The sky had changed, replaced blue with grey

The wind could change the weather, 

Push the clouds away

But her sorrow wil burn forever.

She couldn't believe what was happening

Everything she'd fought for was collapsing

Trip over, cry softly

Don't forget, never forget.

Giving it all, only to fall

She'd been better, much better

If only the wind could've changed the weather

Now her pain burns forever.

Couldn't believe what was happening

There had to be a way out

Somewhere no one told her about

Her life, in destruction

She wanted to find a solution

No one helped, no one could believe she was collapsing

Now her body burns forever, now she forgot.

Those few seconds had been...wrong. How could I suddenly feel so attracted to her? We've always just been friends, this doesn't happen, especially not to me! I don't normally like ladies like her, not that she wasn't nice, she was beautiful, but not what I usually aim for. She was too... too much. And all this too much in her took the too much within me, and produced this too much happening.

We both seem to want each other the same way, but also know better than to pursue this pathetic idea of us ever getting together.

Still, neither of us resisted. We have to have each other. But we can't.

I feel a mix of denial, self-denial in fact. I wanted her so badly, but hated myself for wanting her. I can't even imagine how she must feel, I went to get her at the forest, as if I were some "prince charming", she must hate me.

I didn't even save her life. I just stayed there, beside her, like a coward, scared to be alone.

Actually, scared to leave her alone. No, that doesn't make me a coward!

But, now she was laying there on the floor, looking so fragile, so peaceful. She was starting to turn pale, even paler than she already was since the forest. Now she seriously looked dead.

I crouched down, and caressed her cheek softly. I knew she couldn't be, a kiss couldn't kill someone. All of a sudden, she regained her skin colour, and with her eyes closed, whispered:

"A kiss can't kill, but it can give life" She sounded as if she had read my mind. As she opened her eyes, revealing her beautiful light blue iris, I jumped back, in shock and confusion. I felt myself fall straight on the couch, but I wasn't unconscious, only dizzy and extremely confused. What was going on?

"No!" He yelled. He looked furious, SO furious, I jumped with fright.

 I had noticed him looking at me, as if I were a godess, analysing every line on my face, every curv of my body and every breath that left my mouth.

"What's wrong with you?" I tried to ask it softly, but I think I must've over reacted, because he just got up and walked off. I got up straight after and followed him.

I touched his shoulder, and just as I did this, he turned around,and looked deep into my eyes. I could feel him. He was all around me, ready to be mine, to have me as his, wanting me tremendously. I don't feel anything other than friendship for him. As he quickly but softly approached his lips in my direction, I looked to the side, and he kissed my cheek.

A shock of delight, confusion and, something more I couldn't describe, ran through my entire body in a blink of an eye. I loved it. And I wanted that shock to run through me again. I turned to him, and kissed him. As our lips touched, a shock, aproximatley like the one I had just a few seconds ago, but in much greater power ran through me. It was far too strong, and I just felt myself collapse, just like in the forest.This time, I wasn't alone, abandoned or cold. I was just breathless and...intrigued.